April 3, 2008
strangeness...
have an exam tomm, yes thats how i start my first post. exam! either way, should be studying right now, though i fail to understand: why. dont understand why one is asked to 'do' things, that one cant see any logic in. strangeness... i would like to have chocolate chip ice cream right now, or maybe prawns. have been having maggie every morning, at 3. snoopy (my 2 weeks old dog), was 'given away' by my dad, for insanely selfish reasons. disgust. cried. dont see any reason in crying anymore. grief seeks reasons. i wish i was more than this. i feel the void, wonder how one can feel emptiness. maybe if i try hard enough i can 'fill' it up with reasons, or maybe blow it away in smoke, my usual escape route. i am fighting with demons, i dont believe exist. strangeness.
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it is somtimes alryt just to share with ppl who want to be with u....its all ryt to give away or share the pain, sadness, frustaion irritation.....smtimes running away takes away more than the thing ur runnin away from....smtimes it is possible to do wat u want to do.....have maggie at 3 or have prawn....there is a choice for everything....choose or u can blow it away all in smokes...smtimes u can scream aloud, and let ppl around u here...
cherios
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